It's been a turbulent month! I have a whole new respect for women; we must have some super powers. No matter what obstacle many of are faced with, we deal. Me, not so much anymore. Our little Pip has sent me on an emotional roller coaster ride for which I do not see an end in sight.
I'm tired, really tired, all of the time. And, I'm cranky. Horribly cranky. I love my husband dearly, but right now everything he does annoys me. Which, in turn, makes him feel like he cannot do anything right. I don't feel like I know who I am anymore.
Recently, a hiccup in Woody's past has made me completely lose my grip on reality. I'm always the one saying, "be the bigger person", "don't fight back", "pray for them". . . Lately, I'm praying like Jaron and the Long Road to Love's song:
"I haven't been to church since I don't remember when
Things were going great 'til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you cant go hating others who have done wrong to you.
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn.
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them.
I pray your brakes go out running down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the
head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are honey, I pray for you
I'm really glad I found my way to church
'Cause I'm already feeling better and I thank God for his words.Yeah I'm going take the high road,
And do what the preacher told me to do,
You keep messing up and I'll keep praying for you.
I pray your tire blows out at 110.
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with
his and her tattoos.
I pray your brakes go out running down a hill.
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the
head like I'd like to.
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your
car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I pray for you"
It gives me an odd peace and comfort. Well, if you'll excuse me, I need to go say a real prayer now!
